Kim Kardashian’s Anxiety Spikes During Kourtney’s Mexico Birthday Tr.i.p
Does this hu.rt? You want me hit by a car? Don’t say that. You are going down. You’re going down. THREE, TWO, ONE, GO, GO, GO, GO, GO. Go to the left. I need backup, GUYS. OW. THIS HURTS so bad. Courtney, you’re hiding behind nothing again. Who’s shooting me? CHLOE’S FAT ASS IS STICKING OUT.
I GOT YOU. I GOT YOU OUT. Chloe hu.rts. I h@te you. Uh, you got Chloe, you’re cheating. I GOT CHLOE OUT ALREADY. Chloe is a You play dirty. Turn around. I need to shoot you in the a.ss. Not from too close. 10 feet away. One, two. You have hor. That’s not my a.ss. Hi. Hey, Mom. Can I hold you? Feed yourself.
Rain, do you want me to hold you? No. You want lovey to hold you? I want I want Love wants to hold you. Can I hold you for a minute? Here. Sit here. Let me just hug you. If you give me a hug, I’ll let you keep your candy. That’s what I thought. How come I love you so much? It’s not movie time.
I’m watching minutes. Minutes. Minutes. It’s not movie time. I’m watch. It’s not movie time. 5 minutes. He’s negotiating. Moana is in the other room. Come on. Oh, okay. Come on, lobby. Oh, okay. So, tell me about your tr.i.p. It’s 17 girls as of now. 17 girls? Yeah. You’re brave.
And how long are you gone? For four nights. Are you going to do good1e bags for the plane? Mhm. What are you doing? and I like we ordered these little like Mexican looking bags and then we put a bathing suit for everyone that says SPF 1942. So cute. And so we ordered those for everyone. We ordered like two pairs of sungla.sses for everyone.
Oh, really? Yeah. We’re excited. That’s cool. For my birthday, I decided to take all my friends to Mexico. Tristan has a game, so Khloe’s not coming. We are gonna have the time of our lives. Just fun girls weekend. There is no place like Mexico. I’m so excited to be here. I’ve never had all these girls together, so it’ll definitely be interesting.
Milk’s gone wild. Hi. Welcome. Oh my god. Oh my god. It’s amazing. Oh my god. Best day ever. Happy birthday. Oh, so warm. Oh, the pool is LITERALLY all the people that ARE UNICORN UNICORNS ARE GOOD. HI, KIM. HEY.
HI. How is it? It’s amazing. But wait, can you talk for a sec? Hello. How is it? Can you hear me? Yeah. No, I can barely hear you. Can you hear me now? Yeah, I can hear you now. How are you, Susie? I’m good. I JUST I JUST HAVE ANXIETY. Are you sure it’s safe here? Yeah. Yeah, it’s safe there.
I promise you. Look, I went through the same thing. I promise you it’s safe. Do you have my kids there? is safe. Ever since Paris, I’ve just like go through this like worst case scenario mode in my head. I was so excited to come on this tr.i.p and I had no idea that I was going to end up feeling this way. But it hit me right as we were getting off the plane that all of these people at the airport are going to see, you know, 17 or 18 girls with all of our Chanel bags and, you know, Louis Vuitton this. And it just like hit me
like we’re the biggest Target ever. I’m just like, why did I come, you know? No, Kim. Kim, I’m serious. I went through it. Hey, I understand exactly how you feel right now. I’m just like, why did I come, you know? No, Kim, I’m serious. I went through it. Hey, I understand exactly how you feel right now.
Look, take a deep breath and visualize how many times you’ve been there before and how safe it’s been. You never felt un Okay, you were there in your home and you’ve never felt unsafe there. You’ve always felt very safe there. I’m going to just like for my own peace of mind, I’m going to fly out like for more security just to like stay outside my room when I’m sleeping.
I know it sounds cr4zy, but I just like can’t sleep at night, you know? I can tell you’re safe, but you have to make yourself feel safe. Yeah. you know, and I would take I would calm down. I would remember, you know, your daughter, you walked your daughter on that beach all the time, you know, you know, think back to those times.
You’re home. Okay, I’ll call you later if I need you. Okay, love you. Bye. Okay, bye. I called Joe who owns the house and he had a really awful situation where he was kidnapped. He just like really calms me down and lets me know like it’s okay to feel upset and anxious and just we have to work through it and just like allow yourself the time to cry it out for a minute and then just like get yourself together.
Are you feeling okay? What did Joe say? He like was like he’s like seriously I totally understand how you feel. Like I’ve been through this and this is my safe place. I just feel like with all those like officials at the airport and they saw all these dumb girls and they’re thinking we’re going to just be wasted all night long and not care and like then that’s the time that they’ll come and get us and we’re all wasted or you know what I mean? Mhm.
So now I’m like nervous to like drink or like I don’t know. I’ll be fine. I’ll get over it. Oh my god. I need a bar. Happy birthday. Happy birthday. Are we okay? Is it okay if we sit?
Yeah. Do we want to sit? Sit. Where’s Jen? Is this going to mess up my hairstyle? All right. Does everyone have a sh0t in THEIR SHOT? NOTHING. NICOLE IS BANNED FROM DOING the sh0t until we catch up to her level. One, one, TWO, THREE TO COURTNEY. COURTNEY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY. You guys, I THINK I HAVE A HASHTAG for the whole tr.i.p.
What is it? Mom’s gone wild. Yes, that’s everything. OR OR SORRY, SORRY, SORRY. That’s not it. I like the background. Milk’s gone wild. I’ve definitely like been trying to not make this about me and get my anxiety together because it’s so much fun to see Courtney like a milk gone wild and all of her friends just like dancing and drinking and having fun and just like letting loose without kids.
Happy birthday to you. Oh my god. Do I really blow this birthday? Oh my gosh. Wait, do I really blow this out? Yeah, you do. Okay, everyone. Beat it up. Beat it up. birthday message or anything. Uh yeah, I think he yesterday with the kid. He didn’t say anything about the big hair.
He just was like, “Send pics.” And I go, “My pics aren’t appropriate.” What happened? He goes, “I just met up the house and the scenery.” And I’m like, “I don’t like you.” I’m like, “Sure, cuz you haven’t been here 10 times.” Yeah. Oh my god. Someone got us walking on the beach. That walk down that way.
I did not see anyone. Oh my god. One, two, three of us walking out of the house where they are. How I don’t get it. Like I literally don’t look like this. I’m already having this anxiety @ttack over security and I’m already just like on high alert and now paparazzi’s found us. It’s like just the scrutiny that we get all the time. We try to avoid that.
So I thought, okay, I’m going on like a private vacation, not posting. I’m doing all the steps to try to be as private and discreet as possible. And then you take pictures and if they’re not like perfect, people just like body shame you and criticize you. And like for people to just think that’s okay is so frustrating.
Your body doesn’t look like that. I need to unpack myself and everything. I’m literally gonna go inside and start unatt Do you want to come with us? I can’t have fun after seeing this. Like, it’s just wild because I there’s other parts where I look so good and it’s just from a different angle that literally giving me like vital dysmorphia.
I’m getting cr4zy. The pictures are flawless. They were still saying like I think people think I’m so confident and I’m so secure and I’m so this and I’m not. Like I’m so insecure. I’m just amazed. This is so frustrating. I just came to like chill out and not worry about anything. It’s just been like sorry for like the worst tr.i.p for me.
It’s like why did I subject myself to come here? Next time you won’t be invited. I won’t. I won’t. Don’t search that. My feed. I’m not trying. I seriously think you should just like hilarious. So, do I say LOL with the pri? Just write LOL. I just wrote four. We literally I was like, I wish I could have a case
in the end. So I was like, yeah, it’s your birthday. Then I had one. Imagine being totally sober, laying in bed, hearing despacito 35 times in a row. Yeah. And people breaking things, falling over. I don’t think people are breaking things. We were just dance having like a major dance party. YEAH.
To the same song 35 times. Yeah. The dance moves were wild. I am leaving Mexico early just because I have work to do. So, I was always planning on leaving a day earlier than everyone else. But I’m kind of relieved. Sorry, it’s your birthday, but I’m sure you’re relieved to have a a funner day without me.
I Is funner a word? More fun. I’m sh0cked that you even came in the first place. So, you were a good sport. Tim, what did I say? What did I say? I know that. How do you feel about this? I’m going to I’m going to I’m going to filter it so it just looks cooler and not so basic. Cute. I don’t mind a picture and stuff, but I have such anxiety just going places.
I think it’s like becoming a condition because it’s not like I I get it like I’m in the spotlight. People if you go out in public people can take pics. It’s not that annoying part. It’s just that I don’t want it to be said that Kim was here. Kim went to the this, you know, restaurant or Kim went. I just don’t want to be in the mix the way that I used to.
How desperate I was like going to every restaurant every night like only wanting to be seen knowing that all the TMZ cameras were there. And so I’d like run flock to those places. I would be like Katsuya, I know there’s paparazzi here. Oh, I got my makeup done. I’m going out tonight. I was like so And now even Kanye’s like, “Let’s go out to dinner.
” And I’m like, I can’t I can’t like I don’t I just I can’t enjoy myself. And I feel like I got to get out of my sh3ll, but I don’t want to. I like living this more chill life. Yeah, but don’t you feel you like aren’t this chill alive for years for you guys? Like people just constantly expecting so much from you and just like wanting like so much from you.
I don’t know how you dealt with this. Like it’s not. It kind of makes you like socially like I become socially awkward. Like it makes you like have anxiety. I’ve become socially awkward for sure. I am so afraid of everything, you know, dealing with anxiety, pressure, you know, things that I’ve never really dealt with before.
And I really am not as like open and out there as I used to be. I just don’t like to be in the mix. And that’s just so not like me. But maybe it’s good. Why are you sitting like you’re on a slide? Because these jeans don’t fit me. Are you serious? I can hardly sit. You walk around the house with jeans that don’t fit you.
I’m trying to break them in. Oh, cuz I didn’t understand why you were sitting like you were like going to slide down like an amusement park. Tell me about Mexico. What was going on there? You guys had like a free for all. That was like a sorority. It was a sorority rush.
What the h3ll possessed you to go to a tr.i.p like that? I don’t know. Like I was waiting for piñatas to come out. I’m not kidding. Like what the h3ll was going on there? It was like there was a piñata. There was like cr4zy piñatas. It was with like dildos in them. When when you did it, they would come out. It was cr4zy. But this is not an engagement party.
I don’t understand. It was like a bachelorette party, a sorority party, uh party sweet 16, right? The whole one. I saw the snaps and that tr.i.p looked ins@ne. Yeah. I don’t want to bring up the elephant in the room. Not you. You’re not the elephant in the room. But what the h3ll happened with those? What was wrong? What was wrong with those pictures? First of all, I’ve seen you on the beach.
I’ve been on the beach with you like a thousand times. I know your body doesn’t look like that. Is that like a bad cellulite on my thigh on my one thigh and I always like No, I know. But you have cellulite, but it doesn’t look like it looked in those pics that was like Rocky Mountain High. I swear to God, it was like I was like, what is that? That cuz that’s not your a.ss.
I saw I think I saw Abe Lincoln on your a.ss. I don’t know what was going on. It literally didn’t make sense. I was so upset cuz I was like, that’s just not what I look like. It can really like hu.rt your soul if you hear enough bad things about you. Even if you know you don’t look like that, it could just be like, “Oh, wait a minute.
Do I?” And like the last thing I want is to have like a complex because people were so nasty and they’re so excited to be nasty so fast. That’s what it is. They’re just so excited. They’re waiting for anything bad. I think you should like forget about it. I know you tend to get into like a different mood and like start thinking about it.
Like everybody loves you. Is not going to the Met this year just cuz he just is loving chilling out and taking time off and so I feel like should I just chill out too? Should I just not go? Well, I don’t make that decision based on these picks for you. Not everybody’s working together to like take you down.
You know what I mean? So you need to like just pick your head back up. I think you should go to the Met. The theme is just so over the top like avantgard, calm de Garson and they’re just like so big and then it’ll be like she’s hiding under all that stuff. You become insecure once you start seeing so many bad things about you.
It’s like do I even want to put myself in a situation like going to the Metball, feeling insecure and wondering like am I going to look skinny? you know, are they going to like my dress? What’s going on? Like, you know, I don’t know. I just don’t know if I want to be put in that position. Stop worrying about what everybody thinks. It’s so cr4zy.
He needs to get a life and leave me alone. And he all he does is try to make everybody else feel bad for him and to make try to make me look like the bad guy in the situation when clearly I’m not from, you know, 10 years of this going on. Wouldn’t you be sad if he truly left you alone? You always want what you can’t have.
And when somebody’s right there giving you their heart he’s not though. If he was, that was one thing. He’s not. That’s what he mom. That’s what he makes it seem to you, to Kim, to Chloe, to the world, to everybody. He sits there and gravels and feels bad for himself. So, if that’s was his truth, why can’t he get it together? I have to handle it when he’s out photographed, you know, with a different h00ker every day.
He’s clearly doing his own thing. Britney told me yesterday about like five different girls that he’s h00king up with. What? Yeah. He tricks all of you guys to think he’s doing he’s sitting at home like a saint praying to the Bible. Well, then I think you guys should just agree to have a different relationship and both of you move on.
So, I think it’s actually a good idea that you don’t take any more family tr.i.ps right away because he seems to hold on to those tr.i.ps as a way of or he thinks you’re perhaps going to get back together with him and he does it every single time. The other thing is like I’m like is he doing the tr.i.ps so that most guys in the world like think that we’re together? Maybe.
Cuz honestly like maybe that’s an insurance policy. Well, I think you got to figure it out and make it work for you. And you want to go out and be single. Then on the other hand, you got go out and be single. If he’s never going to change, he’s showing that he’s never going to change.
Why can’t he get his life together? Oh man. I feel like for so many years I’ve been worried about like my actions setting off Scott, which I think is not a healthy way to live my life because at the end of the day like he is doing what he wants and he’s not concerned about, you know, how it might make me feel. I’m sick of being like just the st4ble one who like I’m not going to go do anything cr4zy.
I think it just feels good to not have to worry about like anyone else and just do wh@tever I want and live my life.
